2 of 12 cycles and off to a good start!
Final Thoughts
- As a whole I felt more of an impact than the first cycle
- Thursday & Friday most notable difference
- Had migraine on Thursday & Friday (Did storm on Saturday)
- Nausea and fatigue
- Felt like I was in a fog
- Recovered both days by about 4:00PM
- Bloody nose Monday
- I did work out in the morning
- Need to plan better for timing in the AM, I forgot to put on my numbing cream
- Ran out of time to pack my lunch
Emotionally, this was a draining week for me as I get closer and closer to shaving my hair. I also had an appointment to get a wig for myself. It was more intense and unexpectedly accompanied with a lot of emotions. I was lucky to have been accompanied by my cousin Katie as we visited Cancer Family Cares. A rush of emotions came over us both as we met in the parking lot, unfamiliar of what we would encounter just inside. The staff was an absolute joy to work with, so helpful, genuine with each step as we walked through the steps on how to put it on, care for and style different options. Katie was perfect support for me during this leg of the journey because she knows me. She also is able to be honest with me and yet open to exactly what I want and envision. She went with the flow and I could not say thank you enough!
I wanted to go in with an open mind as to what style I was open to. Ultimately, there were two I decided I liked most. One slightly conventional and one with a little more edge! More to come on the final results.
The real MVP for me today was my mom. Pulling out of the appointment, it just hit me. This is one step closer to a more obvious and outright symbol of what I am working through, I didn't know it would hit me that way, but she did. She asked if I wanted her there, to which I said downplayed the reality that was and thanked her but said Katie and I have it. Which we did, until I didn't. She knew it would catch up to me as moms tend to know and was there to answer the second, I called. Immediately she knew something was wrong when I just sat there sobbing. I drove to her house where she hugged me, cried with me and then said, "I hope you didn't get that blonde one!" If you know my mom, you know honesty comes each time and that she comes from the best of places. Yes- I got the blonde one lol :) I tried them on, we laughed, we cried and then we ate ice cream. She helped me manage my migraine which was worse from all of the crying and then we laughed and cried a final time this time about something unrelated.
I went home and I was able to focus on the boys and check in with Chris from the day.
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Amanda you got this. Take one day at a time. Some days it will be one second or minute. Enjoy the wins. Prayer in the battle but always remember you have an army behind, beside and in front of you to help. We are praying for God’s speed and strength for you. Much love.
Remember that hair comes back! And who knows maybe it’ll be like my cat fur. (Mines even longer and curlier than when you saw me a few weeks ago). It’s so hard to focus on what goal is with all the other hard stuff. Keep on going-you’ve got this!!
Hello. I am the person your neighbor, Teresa, was texting. My sister is her sister-in-law. She shared your blog with me. I admire your strength and courage sharing your journey with all. It will be very therapeutic for you. Remember, CANcer starts with “CAN”… You “CAN” do this. Please don’t hesitate to reach out. Thoughts and prayers are with you are your family.